Trick or Treat?

Yep, it is almost Halloween. The time when the aisles are loaded with every type of candy you could ever DREAM of wanting to buy. {including my favorite candy corn taffy}

Every year I tell myself- "I will be skinny by Halloween so I can wear one of those cute, all be it slutty, costumes that I see all over the place" And it never.ever.happens.

Truth be told, it is one of the reasons I avoid going anywhere for Halloween. Parties, the bar, club, out whatever. I hate having to find a fat girl costume. Or make my own. My mom or grandma has made my costume for many years because NONE of the costumes I find for my size are either appropriate ( because even though I want to wear the slutty ones I will not subject myself or others to that) or they are down right UGLY. 

And it really sucks. Because I LOVE LOVE LOVE Halloween. It is one of my favorite times of the year. Im a sucker for a good horror movie and to be scared out of my mind. Love it. But I never want to partake in it anymore because of my size.

I feel like I am always on the trick end of the trick or treat. I always feel like I could be out there having so much fun, but my size restricts me from truly enjoying the fun.

This year is no different. I have lost some weight, but not enough to were I feel comfortable going to buy a cute costume. I know I can't be the only one that truly feels this way. Even if you are a good girl ( aka you know who you are) , there had to be a time in your life, deep down, you wanted to be bad for one night. I want to be bad.

Oh well, there is always next year.

Here's to a Halloween home handing out candy that I can't eat, and looking at everyone's kids dressed up in their cute costumes and wishing for the day when it is me, dressed up with my kid.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN
XOXO STEPHANIE