Motivation... what's that???

I have none of this so called motivation to get up and walk. Work out. Do my turbo fire.

Zero.
Zilch.

And I have no idea why. Oh wait yes I do! Because I will look like what jello looks like when you take it out and jiggle it. Before anyone gets all upset going " You shouldn't make fun of yourself" why not? Its the truth. Its my fear. I hate the gym. I hate committing to the gym. Why? Well one because I am broke and can't afford it. But the main reason is that I hate going when people are there. I just know I am being watched. Its unnerving. I honestly think I have mild panic attacks when I go.

I need motivation. But where do I find it. I want it. I can hear it in my brain telling me that I need it. But I just wont take the next step.

I am tired of all these blogs and all these facebook posts going on and on about how much they did and how great they feel and "Oh my gosh you need to do xyz because I did and i feel great" what the crap i dont care HOW you did it WHAT you did and HOW great you feel. Im not you. Im fat. Your a size 6. Seriously? Why would I ever take advice from you. Have you been fat? 99 percent of the time they have not. They SAY oh yes i was a size 12 OMG SOUND THE ALARM YOU WERE A NORMAL SIZE.

Im not discounting ANYONE'S hard work. Anyone's drive and motivation to loose weight, but when you are a size 12 and get to a size 6 , in my book, thats nothing. Thats like saying I was thin but wanted to be more thin. When you are a size 22 and get to a size 6 THEN that is who i want to talk to. Because thats who truly went from being unhealthy, overweight, to in shape and those are the inspirations.

So ... motivation... find someone that has overcome something and use them as your motivation to get yourself to a better place.

I  would say im off to work out, but that would be a lie. So I am off to play on facebook and find my motivation.

xox
Steph